| this was actually a really good weekend. friday i went to weatherford and checked out the college. i loved the campus and i can tell i will like it there. my grandma and i went out to eat at on the border and jeremy met us there, she really liked him. i found my prom dress. then there was a tornado warning for blanket and that made things even better. i really do love storms and sometimes i wish i could fulfill my childhood dream of being a storm chaser. that would be so amazing. well then i went and saw a movie (Shooter) with my cousin kolton and the movie was amazing i would have to say it and 300 are neck to neck on my top 7. then i slept for 14 hours which was nothing short of perfect and miss mandy cole came in town. though i didnt do much because i had family in town it was still really really fun. well today i watched 10 things i hate about you and some other movie with julia roberts. and now im about to go eat lunch at gomez with cooley and head off to work. oh and i went on the one girl i despise. quite proud of myself to say the least, i think i am finally able to stop all together being a push over. tuesday tina checks out my hair and figures out what she can do with it (the color and cut) |
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| its over. my senior year is unofficially officially over. and it breaks my heart. kind of scary, no more one act. no more annoying bus rides or fun ones either. no more late night practices and bribing mathis to let us out early thursday nights for greys anatomy. no more getting pissed at each other for not being focused. no more "bonding" experiences. nothing. theatre is over. and i think thats what hurts the most. in two months i will be gone. out of brownwood. away from my "family of thesbians". away from my friends. away from mathis. and i wont have to worry about what character i should take on now or what i can do to improve my role that i have been casted. its scary knowing that i wont have anything to hide behind. i didnt think this moment would come so soon. i had faith in our show. i still have faith in our show. just as i think that we should have advanced. but who am i but a petty actress. if even that. who knows what is to come. i just wish i didnt have to say goodbye to theatre so soon. i will miss it. and all the memories, good and bad, will remain with me forever.. but just as a memory and that my friend hurts. no more making new memories. just thinking back of the old ones and the ones that could have been created. this sucks. | |
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| to the boys: i am through. all you do is lie lie lie. even those that were suppose to be good to me.. nothing good came out of it. i am tired of being the girl to just pass the time or lets hang out with samantha because she is kind of fun, bull shit. i am through putting everything i have out on the line to try to get that "perfect" relationship and always getting hurt.. i am to the point where there is no more just letting my heart get broken, i will not let you anywhere near it so dont bother. to the girls: you piss me off with your drama. dont put words in my mouth and make it sound like all i do is sit around and talk shit about you because i dont.. you are not that important. well some people i do but i will just as easy say it to your face and most likely i have. i am tired of girls being two face. if you are going to be two face at least make one of them look good. i have been around girls and women that all they do is sit around and talk crap about the person that leaves the room and i am tired of it. everyone else: i am going to join the marines. if you cant support me dont say anything about it. i dont care to hear your negative comments and if i do the only affect it will have on me is to make me want to join even more. dont ask why. i have no reason to explain myself to anyone. i do this because i want to and i am the best person that knows what is good for me. dont say there are easier branches because i know this. if i wanted the easy way i would take it. but i dont want to be in the navy or the coast guard. i want to be a marine and i will be. to my TRUE friends: thank you for being there for me no matter what. i love you. i know that i can trust you with everything and i know that no matter what i do, even if you do not agree you will support me and i thank you for that. there is a specific person who has been there with me through thick and thin.. times are tough.. especially here lately but YOU have helped me overcome the trials and you know exactly who you are. thank you for singing with me and just having our talks... i missed those. thank you for making my high school years memorable especially in theatre. you have no idea how much you have helped me and i thank you for it all.
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| we got 4 and a half inches of snow 
my boyfriend tyson. 
my cousin taylor and me :] 
haha my back yard 
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i get to go see the red hot chili peppers in concert. miracles do happen :] | |
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| i just got back from new york and it was fun but now i just have to decided whether california or new york.. help?! so today i was trying to figure out my facebook and it made me thing of xanga. i miss it. times have changed. people have grown closer and others further apart.. the last semester of our hell of a highschool years has just begun and its weird to think there is no more after this. after this some will go off to college and gain weight, others will already start to settle down, others will have find a job and be content with it for the rest of their lives, others will go to jail...maybe prison, and then you have those that will be famous.. yes famous. interesting? ...wonder what the outcome will be. and kassssy im starting xanga again. excited?? =) but it has changed quite a bit since the last time i got on. |
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